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keep holding my hand;so we dont get separated

Monday, May 30, 2005

only a few days since
start of hols.

&imalreadybored outta my wits.
no money to go out.
double sighh.
make that triple.

** take me away ;
to a place where
it doesnt turn
hues of deep pink
streaks of rainbow
in the distance
cus thats where
i wont think
i wont know
of thinngs that lurk
where i cant see
i wont, i wont.

colours in the sky r really pretty.
clouds r really pretty
esp when i tilt my head back to see
thru the soporific assembly.
(new word, means boring. duh,
since when was assembly fun
with ____'s shrill voice
plus incessant nag.)

black's the absence of colours.
so i guess lack of colours
aint exactly a possible candidate
for 'your fav colour'
time for a new 'fav colour' then.

** she told him, then
why why why
she cried
out of mere joy,
relief
only to find a simple reply,
"okay."
like he didnt care
&sheknew,
so plainly
she wudnt bother to press on
as even that wisp of something
always held dear
turned to nothing.

11:57 PM

i blogged other day.
BUTTT. while i was blogging
i think i must hav pressed some funny buttons
cus something came on the screen,
SO. i just pressed anything. not deliberate though.
then. after awhile the computer started acting funny.
then. it shut down.
then. my entry disappeared.
RIGHT IN FRONTA MY EYES.

yeah yeah typical I HATE BLOGGER entry.
sorry but no,
im not gonna churn out -or even try
what i blogged then.

i think i remembered something about that entry.
aint it ironic how
people blog about how they dont feel like blogging
so do their thoughts like,
miraculously appear on the screens or something. gee...s..s.

yeahhs &wehadthe great, amazing challenge! last thursday.
poor bugis. likewise patrons
all swamped with pleading students.
im sure people enjoy having donation bags
stuffed in their faces on a typical shopping morn
continuously every other metre they walk.

okaay, so it wasnt thaat bad.

still.......
so whatever, we headed to bugis village
&asluckmayhaveit,
a nice woman donated 25 bucks each to me & yz
hehheh she tyco,
the woman no change so donated to her
at first she was like, i dunno, smiling.
the woman i mean.
then whaaa, we were at her side in an instant.
bloodsuckers arent we all.
she said she's an nkf ambassador or something.
so she prolly knew how we felt,
what with no one wanting to donate & all.
&afterthat it was..um. slacktime.

so yeahhs. dammit
still end up churning out
the friggin entry. sheesh.

some people were horrible la,
didnt even wna listen to us.
so rude, totally like
stuffed their hands in our faces
i totally rolled my eyes at them.
..of cus behind their backs.
if i could i'll prolly say..
go to hell laaa.
im being ironic here.
talking bout how people detests
such activities,
while complaining bout how
they dont respond to such activities.
damn i keep typing suck.

&somepeople.
like once they see us standing der,
(not even approaching them, MAN.)
they totally like.
veered away from us.
give us a break buddyyy.
its horrible yknow,
the feeling you get
when someone rejects
or doesnt even TRY to listn
its like this balloon in you
totally deflates.
worse still, repeatedly
so hard keeping that smile
plastered on
while feeling like that.
but whatever.
some students like.
dont even give a damn what they collect
dont even try much.

so much for generosity.
not many peeps automatically come up.
that woman was like.
our only big break.

i think i use 'like' too much.
sheesh.
i wna get bep cd.
i hate it when you think of something good
then forget it later.

mcfly rockass.
should it be rocks ass? yeahhs.
mcfly rocks ass.
whose ass? my ass.

people who have blogs
which people actually do patronise
dont even realise.
all they ever do
is complain how no one ever comes.
get over yourself, people DO go.
real people.
people of numbers.

this blog is plainly
p
a
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h
e
t
i
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double pblog
p2 blog.

yayy.

11:07 PM

Monday, May 23, 2005

dont you just hate it when you feel like doing something so,so much,
&thensmthg else you see just totally crushes that want,
you feel like your stomach totally plunges down,
you just dont feel like doing it anymore.

yeahhs i know you do, so dont talk.

ohh oh yess results back!
horrible results. i think i have limited vocab.
gimmegimme more books. -nerds a lil XP
all the books in the world unite!
for physics mr ong said thr were 2 failures,
&thathewudnt mention them,
or they might commit suicide.hrmmms
dont be surprised if you find me missing from school ths subsequent week.
hahh. go figure yoww.
yeahhs apparently i got what i deserved la,
nv study much. hmmms. in the words of george tan. rarr.
besides thaat, erhhmmms. amath was...GOSH.
still not the lowest in class. shall start guessing who. -thinks a lil.
perhaps secondlowest? hahah.
the rest's okaay i guess, considerin how much i "studied".
could do btr.
"thr's still the eoy!"
grr. yet another period of time
whr i'll try but fail yet again.
alwayyys turns out the same laa.

i really wanna do btr this time!
i think the tv's a lil interesting.
yeahhs indeed, it feels more comfy on the sofa.
whoops i think my butt's stuck on.
ahhh im trying to detatch my butt!
sry looks like its not bothering me.
mayb i'll try to do more ltr in the night.
im tireed. more in the morn.
oh no not enough time to finish.
rush the rest in school, yes i will!
sheesh. familiar yall?

nothing else. mcfly rocksrocksrockss ;D hehhehehhh
dont just get hypnotised by the com(blog),
go listen to mcfly and get hynotised by themm!!
hahah. corrrhneey.

*i cant seem to get you off my mind,
thats when i realise, you had me hypnotised.

11:19 PM

Thursday, May 19, 2005

birthday yesterday!
day out at......

;drumroll

tampines mall.
* crow caws

not exactly the most glam place.
but still.
just something small,
seeing i got the nice celebrations so far XP
ate at the open plaza, jeez
sausages and fishballs.
no, really it wasnt as pathetic as it sounds.
._.

heng yi tagged along as well
wanted to see how..AHEM looked like in real life.
"i look much nicer in real lifeee!!"
yeah so... damn lame la.

tried to buy tickets for shows
but all nc16, so.. no shows.
met seniors but apparently they were helpless as well
what a wastee.
just 364 more days to go till 16. hah.

after that went to sunplaza park,
played around, took pics &stuffies
--end--

lols yeah. swings r no longer the type of play
for those 14 &above.
gets you really puke-y.
back to school tmrs, also means...exam results.
hope don't do too badly.
promise to be a good girl, really
-puppy eyes

;behind these hazel eyes

____No, I don't cry on the outside, anymore...
__Broken up, deep inside
____But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes.

8:54 PM

Sunday, May 15, 2005

hey,
stay with me
as im getting naked
stripped down to the bone
hey,
im afraid
this could get ugly
and i might leave here alone

this is not a mistake
its the dawn of the new day
anything goes from now

this is the last of illusions
this is the final trace of innocence
if im caught in the middle
i know it will be
the end of me

hey,
talk to me
dont play me with your silence
whispering in my mind
cus this is not about hate
its the start of a new way
anything goes form now

this is the last of illusions
this is the final trace of innocence
if im caught in the middle
i know it will be
the end of me

hey...
stay with me.

** end of me

lmao gee who knew.
from yz's blog.
yz: look, people DO patronise your blog. hehheh.

(im taking out the quiz, its too bigg!)
though i gotta mention im 35% normal
hmmms
How Normal Are You?

6:53 PM

Sunday, May 08, 2005

loserville.
population: me and you.

ahh.
simple plan sound so nice now.

since the day i met you
&after all we've been through
still a dick,
im addicted to youu.

so nice.what a dilemma then.
im so glad i bought it that time.

new wallet. pink, sweet. hehheh.
i think the big font looks nice.
in a week you'll see everything in big prints. yay!

._.
* one more day [left] to study.

hope exams r over & done with soon.
grr.
stupid exams. dorks.
time's awasting.
jammin awaits.
shd get to sleep soon.
rise&shine early tmr
this entry is crap.

heartbreaker.
how long will i be waiting?

12:29 AM

Friday, May 06, 2005

okay. so i haven't been here for a month.
soon it'll fall into serious shit
and commence its decay.

okay it depends lurh.
its just that.
sometimes i have things to blog abt.
and then..the trouble i have to go through
to walk to the computer, switch it on,
wait for it to load, move the mouse,
type out a little stuff.
all this to let the minority
know what i was thinking
for that moment, that week, that day.
the idea of blogging is seriously spastic.
what's wrong with penning your thoughts
down on paper.
what went wrong with the whole
keeping a diary secret deal.
kids even bought locked up diaries then
jeez.
we should just be adapted to read minds
since its so nice to read people's blog.
yay so fun its like reading their thoughts!
jeez.
jeezy.

i am feeling.. bleak.
no.
not sure.

exams in hmm.
exclaims: its even countable with one hand!
three days?
i should just. prepare for my cremation soon
i so. do not wanna see any ptm cumin my way.
havent started studying much.
'cept for a lil bio
whats not to love about bio
when you've got such a nice teacher.
HAHA.
who enjoys claiming m&ms
which don't even belong to him.
that's beside the point.

i love my mpthree!
just that i hardly even see it.
thats ALL........

howww.
am i so pathetic i need to complain
to a bloggggggg?

things to do:
* don't let this blog remain stagnant.
* stop being such a horrible person, forgetful, sloth..

-rattles on. ....one hr later.

* study and not be distracted by such.
insignificant matters.
* attempt the impossible. great.
* think about logical stuff
* don't space out so much ie. concentrate.
* just apply for a life transfer.
* gotta stop comparing self to others.

guess thts all i gotta accomplish.
mission impossible. yipee.
my english sucks.

people fall.
pick themselves up.
even if i fall.
i'll prolly sit there in a daze.

* I’m awake, but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken.
but without you all im going to be is

incomplete.

i am so. losing. it.

10:20 PM