keep holding my hand;so we dont get separated
Monday, August 29, 2005
so then today i woke
twas all i cud do
to pluckmyself out
out of that dream
barely minutes ago
the surrealism that left a ripple
&the next,arrested my
expectations
cuffed up like prisoners
of mere silly dreams--
dancing&twirling
round our minds
ilaythrafterwards--
feeling so tired&wary
of
so many things
afraid to embrace
what cud have been
like souls of unwanted ghouls
so invisibleyet
raising awareness
not wanting to attract any
losing,
what cud have been
--the dream livid
within spaces past shut eyes
til finally
thrusting it into the deep of minds;
"what's stopping you?"
she finally got out of bed.
the last entry was rather on a happy note
guess its time to revert back
WHYYwhywhy
everytime i try to fill up the silence
it only gets even worse
9:16 PM
Sunday, August 28, 2005
hey mann yz
i really cant help feeling the way i do
so..yeah.
prolly just pmsing EHS!lols
yaa anyways a few days ago
i came across this thing
about blog depression or some shite like that
thenn
it really hit me
like.what r ppl blogging for,
themselves?
or merely some act put on for the public
it shudnt be righty.
a blog's here like a diary is
only..everyone gets a peek at it.
not very appealinghuh.
so whatevur,
im thoroughly APPALLED
at the general behaviour of sgreans
the madrush to enter the mrt trains
eurrghh like..SHEESH?
they dont even give a chance
for ppl to exit?
instead they just surge into the train
like bees attracted to honey
--LOLS i almost typed honeys attracted to bees
like,whats the rush yow..
esp in overcrowded places.
ya so im always like.
standing by the side,gaping after them
without the whole mouth opening part.
how ridiculous
thr was once at..marina bay
or wassit dhoby ghaut
whatever.so.
its was so crowded.
i had to ..urms.
wait three trains i guess?
all the time i was IN FRONT.
cudnt be bothered to fight with em
still,lucky ppl from the back somehow
managed to push themselves to the front
the trains were like sardine cans
packed with people
thr was this train
where the middle was FRIGGIN empty
--not exactly,but enough for ppl to move
yet noone bothered to move in
URGHH
i was pointing out this ludicrous sight
to my sister
boy was i peeved.
other trains had those little spaces in front
mayb enough to squeeze in one person
sad case,icudnt since my sister was there
twas infuriating.WHATEVERR
trains r soso crazy.
went to IKEA with the gurls PLUS WT!
HAHS been long since we went out like that
to such a far place at that
so long it prolly felt a lil strained
ohwells so.
dined thr,the chicky wings cost more than a buck!
hehs i sound like a miser
baart,whatevurr it was nice!
we have a birthday coming soon........
lollsss.
apparently this 'outing' would have left us
high and dry,totally spent.on DINNR.
SHEESH.
ohwells we'll just have to do the whole
present thing a lil later -shrugs
LOL nahh.
i'll avoid elaborating bout
my little stunt
more on cals blog hurhurs
but i will mention
how retarded i felt when i exited the lil
egg-shaped object
thr was this couple who walked past
so happened to see me
&the lady shot me a look
wondering how childish kids get these days
perhaps.
more precise,it was an astounded look
LOL it really wud have given me the fits
only noone was thr when i came tumbling out
MEANIES.a silly thing,thatwas.
here ends the entry.
4:16 PM
Saturday, August 27, 2005
figured out yet?
actually i intended to have this wholee entry
in that stupid nonsensical way
but now someone has it figured out,
guess it wont be any fun anymore
lols.
im not a very public person,
i'll admit
i wont have me splattered all over this blog
people scrutinizing this crap
cus that's not how i am.
i'll go round as many times
as i wished
but refrain from getting to the point
people always expect so much
out of everything
in fact
i hate when things arent as good as i expect
doesnt that mildly make me a perfectionist
isit so tough
to just take things for what they r
and stop fitting boundaries round them
people keep mum-there's a shy one!
people read books-there's a nerd!
people talk loud-they're happy!
but thats not how it is
they cud always use loud
to cover the soft
read the books
to drive away the boredom
keep mum
to speak louder inside
well jolly well get the machine
from the far corner there then.
it'll do all the work
where rejects r cast out
perfection&no less is expected
the best,sifted out
grade A quality!
ayes remember
how i'll be in the other pile--
where the dark is all
that cud have been,
haven't i always.
*__
so bottle up old love,
throw it out to sea
watch it away as you cry
1:12 PM
Monday, August 22, 2005
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jtkalgmmnyobpoqarrsdtpulvewaxsyezea
gofigure.
ifyoucanbebotheredto.
8:53 PM
Thursday, August 18, 2005
HELLUUU
i will add
coloursto my blog! hehs
my fingers are hurting
for no good reason
siaan shuttle run today
deprove by o.1 sec HA
some. colour quiz thingy
Your Existing Situation
Unwilling to extend herself or exert undue effort (with the possible exception of sexual activity). Feels that further progress requires more from her than she is willing or able to give. Would prefer reasonable comfort and security rather than the rewards of greater ambition.
Your Stress Sources
Feels that life has far more to offer and that there are still important things to be achieved--that life must be experienced to the fullest. As a result, she pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity that will not let go of things. Becomes deeply involved and runs the risk of being unable to view things with sufficient objectivity, or calmly enough; is therefore in danger of becoming agitated and of exhausting her nervous energy. Cannot leave things alone and feels she can only be at peace when she has finally reached her goal.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Believes that she is not receiving her share--that she is neither properly understood or adequately appreciated. Feels that she is being compelled to conform, and close relationships leave her without any sense of emotional involvement.Circumstances are forcing her to compromise, to restrain her demands and hopes, and to forgo for the time being some of the things she wants.
Your Desired Objective
Wants interesting and exciting things to happen. Able to make herself well-liked by her obvious interest and by the very openness of her charm. Over-imaginative and given to fantasy or day-dreaming
Your Actual Problem
Has a fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants. This leads her to employ great personal charm in her dealings with others, hoping that this will make it easier for her to reach her objectives.
GOSH some corneh shite hahah
the existing situation part is like..SHEESH la
sounds a lil true but in a far-fetched manner
hmmms... aye
9:19 PM
i didnt mention ...
why we went to watch fireworks huh
lols cus of my dad,came back from thailand
for that weekend,so...
decided to eat steamboat!
hehhs was stuffed to the brim
everytime he comes back
we have lavish dinners. hehhs!
what. aye. treat.
i notice thr's this trend
in the way teens blog
they blog either when they're
really happy
or really sad
extreme emotions ehhs.
doesnt seem to have an inbetween
unless they're really bored..
AHEM.
guess thats what a blog's for eh
sheesh what a load of crap
I LUV GD CHARLOTTE
there's a luv that cud fall down like rain
whhootsthis is crap PERIOD
even the best fall down sometimes
even the wrong words seem to rhyme
out of the doubt that fills my mind
i somehow find
you&i collide
bio test like shit today
im gonna PIAAA for homeostasis
(conscience:not anytime soon huh..)
sighhs
wonder if all crazy ppl go around typing in caps
`TOODLES
*; nothing to assuage this craving
lay your hands on the table
empty fables
spun from webs of sweet candy
bound to leave you choked
lips sealed
eyes peeled
GO BLIND LA SHEESH
hehs kays i'll quit fooling around
MCFLY ROCKSMYSOCKS
actually i've got a substantial
amt of socks with holes in them
HA.
6:25 PM
Sunday, August 14, 2005
fireworks at marina south,
SUPERLY SWELL!
gosh it was SOSO nice
the bursts of lights
illuminated all e lil clouds of pollution
hahah
ohkay it really was superb
the effects
the way the fireworks erhh..
turned out
corney music though like crap
even if you've seen it before
like no matter how many times
i'd say it'd take your breath away
every
single
time.
soso nice yays
everyone should watch it
we watched it over the trees though
HAHA blocked the best view sighhs
if not i guess i'd just faint thr
really spiffy hehs
i think i'll die for amath test tmrs
baarrt,,whatevur
PS; i think this is the first time
i've blogged so many times in a month
-cue applause
11:59 PM
Saturday, August 13, 2005
nononono baby
nononono dont lie
what you gonna do
when it all comes out
when i see you
&whatyou're all about
{i dont know why
&i lieand i lie
till i don't know who i am
gosh feeling soso
stifled.
gosh think im retarded
scared of the most minute stuffs
not in the ooh-ghost-ahh way.
sighh.
sorry if this entry's crap
but guess what
i dont really care what you wanna read
cus thats all i wanna type.
actually i already know the entry's crap
&imjust so lkajoy
to know that ppl can think what i think
bout other blogs when they read it
cus i think that too
&right nowi think i'll read it and go
hey this person sucks like shit
typing such stupid stuff
-snortts
ohkay. so a person doesnt suck for typing stupid shit
im sick of trying to live up
to my own expectations
of how ppl shd/shdnot be
aye,right about now
i need a break from me
or do i need a brake. hahah
whatevur this's one mind thats moving to fast
like right now soon as i'd typed that
first:
i'll think something
then straight away retaliate
MY OWN THOUGHTS SHEESH.
how retarded is THAAAT
--->this way to 'nuts'by car only
am i saying too much?
i should stop rambling.
this is so superficial
great,sound like
a trueblueretard now
10:15 PM
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
holidays r INDEED boring affairs
especially when you've got
hmms...nothing to do?
but slack?ohoh&watch naruto movie?
hahah its like super short
i wudnt say the storyline's
fascinating?or anything out of e ordinary
very..typically naruto.
im waiting.......
for the perfect time to call you back
BUSTED's BUSTED! sighhs
shall not harp on this matter.NEXTT.
OHBOY i've just learnt something.
HAHAHAAA so SUPERLY WEIRD
i shall quit wondering too much
*___there's a luv that could fall down like rain
5:45 PM
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
hey blogga happy national day.
sheesh
imagine having layers of makeup
caked on your face
isit possible
it shields you from yourself
while letting you become
someone else entirely
beneath that mask
..feelings can be masks.
can they?
like how getting high
makes you do uncharacteristical stuff
letting you be happy
without having to worry bout stuff
just for a moment
let your mind run free
thinkin bout only nownownoww
is that y ppl get super low after highs
sheesh whatever.
sometimes if you just stop to think
'stead of yakking non-stop
watch the people around
you'll see how silly they are
like even an atomic bomb
can barely leave a trace on the conversation
they cant see
how ppl watch them
since people dont really matter
;guess i do that too much
stopping to watch ppl
makes you forget bout
those even nearer
i am....
afraid. a move.
where to?
i cant..cus
i need a guide
'else its like groping in the dark
so,TAKEMEAWAY;
,just waiting...
know how to get away from yourself?
get to someone else
anticipating is the nice part,
butwhen expectations arent met
try not to fall too hardbabe
'else you've got your hopes in heaven
god aint doin the job for you nonoo
hahhah this sounds like..
typical corny song lyrics
this aint fountains of wayne
its fountains of crap
SUPERRBB!
this is A sprawling mess.
i mean A with a capital a,hehhs
siaan.indeed a very nice word to say
YUCK I HATE..puhh.
order in the house!
i need some.
im splattering my brains here
dissecting my own mind
distortin thoughts
yuck.terrible mess
dump-like environment alertt
the other com is throwing a tantrum
doesnt heed what i say
led astray ehs
by the overloading
VIRUSS,SPAM
gotta keep it on a tight leash
BOYOHBOY.
i gotta stop BEING
or else i'll fall worse
than the last.BAM
_you're beautiful,its true
i saw your face
in a crowded place
&i dont know what to do
but i cant escape the truth
i will never be with you
10:50 PM
Monday, August 01, 2005
blogga's loading reaalll s..l..o.w..ww..
why i have no clue
must be the new layout..
hmmms....
gotta wait for the link boxes to appear
alright,'else
there'll be no point in coming
oh dearrs,how horrid!
uh sheesh.
physics test tmr dang
what the hell m i doing here
aint nothing i gots to say
so seeyaa
10:18 PM
